Boys will never understand that girls feel pressure to be thin. My boyfriend doesn't. I put on 10 kilos since we began dating. He likes my curves, I don't. I don't like that my legs rub together, or that I don't look like the girls on TV.
I'm basically vegetarian now. I drink soy milk, use only pasta that has no animal product in it. I use homemade soap and cruelty-free makeup and hair products as often as possible. I don't eat much meat, only in spaghetti basically. And I feel healthier.
For my update I am going to say that the last few months have been a trial for my relationship. Things have come to the fore that I hoped never would. I know the full story of Aaron cheating. I still use it as a weapon sometimes and I know I always will because it hurts him to know exactly what he did to me. But we are stronger. We have made vows to one and other that will always mean more to me than a gold ring and a legal document ever could.
I look for hope from couples I know, couples like Shannon and Jason because they are both such amazing people separately and even more amazing people together. They give me hope that some people are just meant to be together, forever or just for now.
I am learning to Brisbane Stomp and Melbourne Shuffle. The latter is proving more difficult than the former. But I will master them both. Then I will buy phat pants to dance properly with.
I have had my first real life run in with a moral dilemma. I got offered a job which meant I would be an older man's escort. I turned it down, not because it was sexual, because it wasn't, but because I could not make a man my father's age pay for me to keep him company.
I have bought myself a DSLR camera. I hope to one day take amazing photography with it.
I am coming to terms with my sexuality and who I am. I have done some soul-searching this year.